Saturday, November 5, 2011

Temporarily Going Backwards...

Thought I'd write a quick post.  Scott and I had an experience two weeks ago that was so awful, I thought I would share...LOL.

Cancer's gone...happy dance.  It's taken weeks for this news to really, really sink in.  I can't tell you why, but it didn't seem real.  I felt so guilty.  
Why was I not happier?  I think I had my happiness in reserve...secretly waiting for the other shoe to drop. 

Well, last weekend it did.

Without going into ANY detail...I ended up rushing Scott to the emergency room on a Saturday night.  It was your typical Saturday night ER scene...not pretty.  It took FOREVER to be seen, and Scott was in excruciating pain!  They finally did one procedure to help him, and immediately, a different pain (worse) set in.  The morphine was ordered, but it took forever to show up. 
 It was the worst.

The ER doctor came in to tell us it was not at all what we thought (the thing he had been diagnosed with twice at the walk-in clinic).  He started talking about the effects of the radiation, the long term possibilities, etc.  I'm telling you, the entire room literally began to spin out of control in my mind, and a migraine simultaneously set in as well.  Just the word cancer took my breath away, and my peace.  The doctor was not in any way saying the cancer was back, but it was the main subject of our discussion.

We came home late that night...problem totally unresolved.  Pain, pain, pain.  We couldn't get into another doctor until 3 days later.  He couldn't even go to work.  FINALLY, we saw the doctor, (no help) and FINALLY I talked Scott into calling the cancer doctor (I think he was reluctant to open that can of worms back up).  He did... they had the remedy... they had a protocol  for this exact thing!  Within 48 hours...huge improvement!  He's fine now.  Back to work.

What's my reason for sharing this story?  Because after this experience (which felt like a huge flashback to last summer) our whole attitude has changed.  We are finally SO HAPPY, SO THANKFUL, to have a clean bill of health.  Seeing how quickly it was snatched away, made us realize once again to count each and every day as a huge gift. It's been a matter of readjusting our brain to normalcy.  Normal is good...boring is wonderful.  We ran errands last weekend, enjoying each and every moment.  We spontaneously decided up jump up and go to the movies Saturday night.  After church Sunday, we lounged around reading and napping. 

We feel like we got a new lease on life...and we LOVE it :)

So enjoy your day...enjoy your health... enjoy the world around you...and never, ever knock boring.



Dawn said...

oh Teri, thank goodness all is well...I can only imagine the agony the two of you must have been in waiting for a diagnosis. I will take your advice to heart, as I was complaining last night of nothing to do on this Saturday (my husband works)..and I will enjoy it and him when he comes home...xoxo

Priscilla said...

I don't understand - what was causing the pain and what did they do for him to help. And what is "parodical"?
Not being, nosy, but if I"m going to continue to pray for you all, I want to know what I need to pray for.
You have really touched my heart with your lives. So close, yet with a better ending.

Girl Meets Paris said...

I was trying to write protocol, and I think spell-check chose another word. I've corrected it.

The pain was caused by swelling that is sometimes a side-effect of radiation. He is FINE now...way better. We don't think this will happen again...but at least next time we will know what it is and can address it quicker :).

Thanks for asking!

Grammy Goodwill said...

That must have been an awful thing to go through. I'm glad your husband is better and HEALTHY now. Thanks for the reminder of what's important.

Anonymous said...

I loved reading about your new joy! yes!! You both earned it!! Relish every minute. Hope you have a delightfully boring weekend. :)
I personally know how wonderful boring is. xoxo Dianne

Priscilla said...

Thanks for answering. I was just hanging there wondering. I'm so relieved. Funny, never having even met you, I feel such a closeness. With the way we live nowadays, families spread all over the country, the internet has brought people together in a way no one could have imagined a few years ago.
All the best-

A Tale of Two Cities said...

Wow! I can see that must have been really scary. Makes you reevaluate what really matters in this life. Glad it all worked out and that Scott is feeling much better.

High Heeled Life said...

Teri, I can't begin to imagine the terror you must have gone through. I'm so happy that all is continuing well. It's always surprising what some doctors know and others seem to either have forgotten or not know it in the first place.

This is a great post to remind us not only to take each moment and enjoy it (that's a given - as you know on this end, after the detours in both our lives - before the Mr. and I met) .. but also to ask and keep asking until you get answers.


Jenny said...

Oh, my goodness..just reading your description of what happened wore my heart out, and that I am sure cannot even come close to what you had to go through. I thank the Lord that there were answers and finally comfort for you and Scott. I just want to give you a hug....I hold y'all dearly in my prayers and thoughts. Thank you for sharing and encouraging.

Nadia @ The French Life said...

Too true! Its good to hear a story with a happy ending :)

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